Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Sorry...

Sorry I've been missing. I can't really type about anything right now. Lots of stressful things are going on in our house right at this moment. It's enough to make someone crazy. Like me.

First of all someone KILLED my dog. Like poisoned him dead. We live in a small village/town with NO vet, so when I noticed him acting all weird and drunk, it was 1 in the morning with a flight leaving at 8:00 am and one at 2:00 pm the next day. Due to cargo office hours, he made it on the 2:00 pm flight to the doggy ER in Anchorage.

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Several thousand dollars later, he passed away. He was such a good dog, and I really have a long post about how he was the best dog ever (really, no comparison) but it still hurts me to tears every time I talk about him so you'll all have to wait. Especially since he died because someone mixed antifreeze with some caribou soup and set it out to trap dogs into eating it. And he happened to be one of those dogs who fancied himself some free caribou soup.

So, my kids, husband and I are having a very tough time with his death. I literally cried the entire flight from Kotzebue to Anchorage. Someone must have known what was going on because the flight attendant stuffed some tissues into my pocket and said, "My dog died 10 years ago and I still can't talk about it..." My daughter is having the worst time. You'll know why when I get around to writing the story of Nugent the Wonder Dog. She was especially close to him because he really did save her from a lot of dangerous things. He was her pal. Here are some texts I got from her the day after when she was having an especially hard time. (I'm in green, she's in white)

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BOTH my grandmothers were in the hospital. My one grandma, my aana, is going to be sent to a Nursing Home because she needs to be on dialysis for the rest of her life. She did NOT look like herself when I went to see her. It was all I could do not to burst into tears. My other grandma was rushed to the ER and admitted on my birthday. She also spouted the "C" word when I visited last weekend. Sigh.

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And I am out of town on a work trip. I guess the only saving grace is that I am in Palm Springs and its hot as heck here. This Eskimo is totally melting. (Don't you wish it was like that!? Get fat and just visit a warm place to melt it off!!) I missed Kaisa's first Piano Recital where she played two songs and I'm missing her Play she worked so hard on, and her last day of school picnic... (Yes, our kids get out of school THIS FRIDAY!)

Anyway, I'll be back. When I'm not melting, or crying.

19 comments:

Matt, Kara, Hunter and Cavan said...

Oh what a horrible time for you.

Did a lot of other dogs die as well?

Safe travels home.

Susan Stevenson said...

I am so sorry to hear about your dog. That is a despicable thing for ANYONE to do! I can only imagine how horrible this is for you. :(

gpc said...

What a heartbreaking loss for all of you. I am so sorry.

basebell6 said...

wow that is a lot of things to deal with all at once. i'll be praying that things turn around and quickly for your family. [i'd be melting in palm springs too and i'm no eskimo. 73 degrees or above and i almost can't handle it!]

rockygrace said...

I'm very sorry, for you and your family.

Josephine said...

I am so sorry for all your troubles! It makes me so sad. Hang in there. I wish words could heal hearts.

Slacker MOM II said...

When I was about 10 a neighbor killed our dog the same way. It was so heartwrenching. I will never forget "lady". I am so sorry for loss.

Jerald said...

I am very sorry to hear about your dog. One dog lover to another.

Jerald Pendleton
Castro Valley, CA

Marianne said...

sending hugs to you and yours

sue said...

words are never good enough at a time like this, so please know, that you and your family are my in prayers this week.... I am so very sorry....

Anonymous said...

I am so very sorry for your loss. Losing a dog is unlike any other loss, such heartbreak. I still tear up at the thought of my two dogs that passed on years and years ago. I hope they find the person who did this.

laraine said...

I'm so sorry about Nugget. I just can't understand how someone could do something like that. Our pets are like our family. I'm sorry your baby girl has to experience this.

I hope both of your grandma's are on the road to recovery.

You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.

Rebecca said...

Ugh. What a nasty time ya'll have been having. Hope you have safe travels home, and that your grandmas feel better soon. As for the dog, well, wounds like that take a while to heal. So sad.

merinz said...

So sorry to hear about all the awful things that are happening to you right now.
It is creepy to think that someone could stoop so low as to hurt a harmless animal.

Lisa said...

First, I love reading about your life in Alaska, I have had a love affair with your home place for years. I even wrote a teaching unit based upon your state. I just wanted to say that you and your family are in my prayers. I know exactly how you feel. Someone did that to my dog about 14 years ago, I still cry over her. It took me 7 years to get another dog, don't wait as long as I did. I'm sorry someone was so thoughtless and careless. I'm saying my prayers for all of your family. I love your grandmother's smile.

Arvay said...

I'm so sorry for your loss! How heartbreaking! I hope the bastard that did it gets what's coming to him!

Anonymous said...

I'm very sorry for your loss. I hope things get easier for you and you come back to blogging.

alaskapi said...

Way too many hard things on your plate all at once.
Hoping you got some "melting"time in the sun to just sit and breathe deep...
Best wishes to you and your family .

Traci said...

I'm so sorry about beautiful Nugget. I have a lab too and adore the breed, such wonderful dogs.

I can't imagine why a person would do something so horrible and cruel to a trusting pet and break a child's heart. There is a special place in hell for people like that.

Sending positive thoughts and prayers to both of your grandmothers and the rest of your family.